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Wow, it’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. I miss this little blog. I’ve been so busy with my little projects with eating disorders to distract myself from using symptoms that I haven’t actually blogged about MY eating disorder. You know…I’ve becoming somewhat of a activist. Is that the correct word? An eating disorders advocate. THAT’s the correct word, lol. There’s so many good websites and blogs and twitters and support groups and recovery stuff out there. I feel like I’m contributing to society at least. I may not have a “job” but I am contributing which helps out with my issues. I think this is just the normal process in recovery though. At the very least, I’d rather be doing stuff ABOUT eating disorders than HAVE the eating disorder.
I’m actually doing really good. Ever since I started writing letters to my body and to ED, I have been quite happy. I’ve been eating *okay, PERFECTLY. Exercising while trying to train for my first 5k. I have to attribute the chipperness to finding some type of peace with my body. NOW, don’t get me wrong..I’m frustrated as HELL at my body for not responding the way I want it to but I’m also trying to be patient with my body showing me that if I take good care of me, then it will respond in a postive way (Okay, that means losing weight). I’m a little frustrated that I have barely lost anything, yet I’ve done so well with intake and output. Trying not to JUDGE me or my body. Trying to be PATIENT. Trying to LOVE myself (hey, supriseningly this is working! I don’t love myself yet and I’ve moved away from hating myself, so that leaves me somewhere in the middle).
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